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Alles Gute zum Geburtstag, Opa W.! Ich hoffe du hast Spass an deinem Geburtstag.

Hey guys,
guess what... I am finally turning 16 in two days... great news, huh?
Now it is June 1st and I can't believe that I have to leave so soon... it'll be over sooo soon... and I feel so weird! Totally different from the feelings I had when I left Germany... much more intense! My brain is producing a chaos in my head!! I feel happy, sad, alone and my mood would swing from like really happy to sad and aaaaaaaaaaah... everybody reminded me today that I'm gonna leave so soon and how much they're going to miss me... wuah! It's so hard to explain... I feel like a bomb that could explode any moment! I just can't believe what I have to give up. I want to stay, of course I want to see you g(erman)uys again, but oh my... it's so hard to explain... is there anybody there, that understands what I'm talking about?? I can't even really sleep at night... aaaaaaaaaaargh! It's so hard!
But besides that, I'm amazingly good! Today will be my last Lacrosse meeting, just like a after-season dinner kinda thing. We'll return our uniform and stuff. The last time I will see the whole (not even the whole team, because some are just not coming :( ) team again... I'm gonna cry so hard! And tomorrow the Seniors get out of school... everybody is happy to get out of school... except me... am I sick? And then my contact broke IN school today... now I don't have ANYMORE because I used them daily...
It actually feels better if you try to put your feelings in words! But still... no no no no no!! Aaaah... why? Sorry at all my readers, that is a blog, an online journal so either you read through all the weird stuff I write or you just stare at a bunch of letters :)
Oh by the way I passed all 5 OGT's with an accelerated score... that means I get 10 extra % on every of my exams and I don't even take a Nutrition and Wellness exam, because we took an online "pre-exam" and everybody who got more thatn 75 % (which was everyone) don't have to take the test.
On June 4th (yes one day AFTER my birthday) I have to take my US History exam... that's gonna be my toughest exam... I got done with my 280 FIB w/out a wordbank review packet and then I gotta study them all and 3 possible essays!
Phys. Science will involve a lot of studying too... I think I'll do fine on the others!
I can't believe it, I can't believe it!!! Ten months, already over? Where did my time go? Even when I come back it won't ever be the same!
I should have kept a journal for the whole year... i can't believe I didn't.
Well I'm gonna get back to my studying!

I love you, everybody!
Julia